the dogs are off to the s.p.c.a. to be vaccinated against rabies... 

carol lends our weed-eater for stephan who wants to clean up their yard. 

'frankenstein' on tv late-nite. my grandmother is ill...

"Hi! sey to phillid a to call me. plz" sms, dion...

new hairdresser @ my mother's salon to replace thieving, mellisa... 
i skip on attending the org function but i also don't feel like going to amber's 21st birthday party across the road (i want to be left alone - not particularly sad). the music is booming hits (i hear madonna) pleasantly...  

packing away the grocery shopping i notice that suddenly most of pick 'n pay's products have thinner or less wrapping...

'the skeleton key' & 'dominion', the exorcist prequel on late nite tv. 

black friday (today would be godfrey & mine's 6th anniversary) ... 

...reading about edward carpenter & the "the education of desire"... 

clinton visits me. my mother overnites @ dion's in town. clinton's university peers are fascinated with egyptian divinities. he's now baptised as anubis (must all my males have death cult hang-ups?). he spends the night.

"ACT 6" sms to sa's got talent (voting for my primary school buddy, madeleine engelbrecht, now singing sensation "maddy")...

"ACT 5" voting on sa's got talent for the socialist ("ubuntu" conscious) dance group tembisa revolution...

keys cut for the library... double booking (an org event & an extended family function @ the same time) ...

i escort carol in the afternoon taking stephan to write  an exam (miss tai chi). 

we gallivant, hunting down (closed) kauai's & drop by sahra (next to soundandmotion studios) where an engaging guide, cecilene shows us around after hours...

"Hi. Half available @ the moment. Evelyn replacing @ month end. Her son was in accident. Ok Cu" sms from carol...

"Goeiemore. 1 bottel Stemtech, asseblief?" sms, carol...

... thee muse i wake up to: 

"Wake up

Ur beautiful, loved and blessed

Feel me? (I think I do)



When U found me I was just a piece of clay

I was 4mless, U gave me a new name

With the breath of life I now live abundantly

All I needed was the potter's hand

And the blood on Calvary (that's right)


But 2 much power (tell it)

Can can sometimes turn 2 shame
2 much desire
Sometimes makes U feel the same (come on)
But 4giveness is how U win the game
I begged 4 truth, now I know the truth
And that is when U came and said I was...


Beautiful, loved and blessed
I'm better than the day b4
Cause U made me confess that I am...
Beautiful, loved and blessed
When U're free U're really free indeed
All U gotta do is just plant the seed


A constant battle 2 stay ahead of the game

Is anybody famous when everybody wants fame?

Always trying 2 break U down

Thinkin' that'll raise 'em up

I just wanna b happy

Come take this bitter cup from me



If I were ever 2 write my life story

I could truly say through all the fame and glory

I was just a piece of clay in need of the potter's hand

Cause when U whispered in my ear

The words I so now understand, oh..." prince & tamar 'beautiful, loved and blessed'... 

i walk past a whirling dervish in the sand returning from the bank on an errand; walking along the beach... 
window cleaners are mountaineering alongside a high-rise being cleaned
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very interesting chat @ our weekly "talk & tea": ann talks about meeting a man who cycled around africa  sister katie elaborates on forgiveness...

... sex dream about 2 unrelated boys ("SCRUTINIZE!")... 
@ the llibrary we talk about discrimination & stereotyping around hazel's son involved in a high-school sex scandal with home-made (school-made) porn... 

lesbianism & synesthesia on 'heroes'...

"the event on the 30th will be at the strand tower hotel Cnr strand and loop str, 2minute walk from the org. Regards, ellen" sms, ellen (scientologist)...

my in-law to-be, ricardo is visiting my sister, aleasha & he braais fish very nicely. she failed her drivers test today. 'van helsing' & 'queen of the damned' on tv.

"Lol!halo my engel!ganit mt jo?ek wiet glati wavo ek wagi ma ek wag ma!mk...klompies luv u 2!mwah" sms from sandra...

"eye laugh jew! whatchu w8ing, whatchu w8ing, whatchu w8ing 4? ;P" sms to sandra...

fetch my grandmother's meds from the state hospital in the morning run into a bargain ("pearl of great price") @ a 2nd hand store...  

full moon... stood up... 'the time machine' & 'strange days' on tv again...

spend the day with ann on youtube. (nicole kidman asks to be my friend on myspace- it's obviously her press agent  or pr team but it's still fabulous). 

tonight my mother & i take my grandmother to the hottentots-holland hospital emergency room with her painfully injured arm (some of the personnel are callously unhelpful - a surly female receptionist brightens up when my mother approaches me & my waiting grandmother; unbeknownst, a male receptionist is watching 'knight rider' re-runs while patients are waiting inside). we're waiting till past midnight.  

"please call GODFREY" sms, godfrey.

my bitch is a druggie!! (i have to feed morpheus painkillers for an upset stomache)... 

... Spiral Path: Gay Contribution to Human Survival

channel surf across samuel l. jackson in 'the man'... (i've been collecting 2nd hand 'men's health' mag.'s from library bin for the last 2 weeks ...)

godfrey calls... 'the omen' re-make on tv late nite...

carol picks me up on a food run to visit. get drunk with sean - commiserating through crises of broken faith. 

... 

turned off by prince's anti-gay sentiments when i finally get to hear a pirate copy of "chocolate box"... 
my grandmother has fallen and injured herself but luckily with no bruising when my mother & i get back home later.

double rainbow develops mountainside @ sunset...

internet mu' vids @ ann's place (i discover leslie, who i'm making a website for, is related to ann)...

today i'm the only boy in maia's all-female tai chi class. she shares some life experiences with us before class...

“I could be bounded in a nutshell and count myself the king of infinite space…”shakespeare's 'hamlet'... 

new season of 'heroes' begins tonight...

"aai laugh joe!" sms to sandra...

"Net n klynkie Lino om t se x lief vi jo!!!leka dag...mwah op jo bek!!!" sms, sandra...

... "and a plane flies through the air," - peter gabriel, 'secret world'. 

early moring reading in the back garden... an ant crawls across the page...

@ the talk & tea meeting we continue making ribbons while marlon gets x-questioned about entheogens & explains very eloquently about metaphysics (unadulterated scientology).... 

carol to wait on quote from handyman for water damage from her fixed geyser... to town quickly in afternoon. see caleb, bespectacled on smoke break in front old org building... 

on train ride home clique of xhosa youth vociferously debate promiscuity & pre-marital sex with religious overtones (i hear 'thixo' - God, xhosa quite often). one young woman says something impressive in english to her opponent: "everything is permissable but not everything is beneficial!". 

building studio m... 

after us working @ her boutique my mother drives off to help dion @ the club in town.

RAIN... 

'the speed of light is a universal constant': Apollo rules!

a young john travolta is 'the boy in the plastic bubble' this afternoon on cape town tv... 

'deep impact' on tv again: a black u.s.a. president & blair underwood ... i feel wistful, "happy melancholic".

... morning @ the library with carol, fatima & marlon. 

later with ann web-surfing youtube... 

bright sun shiney day!

'hitch-hiker's guide to the galaxy'; 'a clockwork orange' & channel-surfing 'get over it' (midsummer night theme) on tv again...

to town along with hazel & stephan driven by carol... 

into the org to buy ethics. talk with caleb & enrique. 

 ... 

for the first time tonight i hear my grandmother bless the back door not to open & keep us safe after i'd locked it for the night.

'the grudge' is on late nite tv - i remember how scared godfrey was of toshio the 1st time we watched it.

"Jy moet gou maak. Ek is nie Ouma nie." sms, carol (waiting for me, busy @ the org.)...

"Ek wag by die hek." sms, carol (waiting on me)...

"Running a bit late. Tel Hazel." sms, carol (taking hazel & me along to c.t.) ...

"ok." sms to carol.

"Kry my BUITE die biblioteek 9 uur." sms, carol (on our way to town)...

"skaars" sms to sandra...

helping ann online, her friends drop by. watching rare mu' videos on youtube in our conversation ann reminds me that king solomon's 'song of songs' is called "hooglied" (high/height song) in afrikaans... 

ann records tai chi class for  her youtube...

carol, ann & myself are a sowing cicrle today as we start making orange ribbons for our self-initiated reading awareness campaign. we're joined by kobus who promises to attend future meetings. marlon drops by... 

on tv tonite is part 2 of last week's crime documentary about gang culture & ritual murder: "the flower gang". it's strange to see something i've avoided all my life affirmed on tv; seeing local gangsterism cogitated about makes it seem more abstract & somehow logical (even acceptable). there's a coloured male intellectual providing psychological insight.

sexi(ng)ness(?)...

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... homoerotic medieval/renaissance jewish poetry: moshe ibn ezra & judah halevi (wow, how blatant)... 
'x-men: final stand' on tv ... 
later 'corky romano' (hilarious)... 
chess game on re-broadcast 'terminator: sarah connor chronicles'.

the dogs get dip ampules applied...

johan visits me @ the shop... 

to town to buy incense, a lizard crosses my path by the graveyard,,, 

walking back to the boutique, fine glass splinter on the tarmac look like starscape... 

'sky high' interrupted, back to work shop; later 'shaun of the dead'; we finish @ midnite (i miss the org function) & drive the 2 debutantes back to stellenbosch.

"please call me" sms, my mother @ the work-shop.

"Marcellino, is ek reg as ek dink ons altwee kan sing: I dont want ur bullshit/ I just want ur sexuality. Sal jy asb n cd skryf met dai song en al die favs wat jy altyd vir my gespeel het? Baie dankie! I just want ur poetry in motion..." sms, godfrey.

"Ek blaai nou deur my pa se album en sien n foto van jou toe ons by xe se drummies in Bellille Suid was. Onthou jy? Ek rou oor die verlies van ons samesyn." sms, godfrey.

"Is jy dan nog steeds kwaad? Jy weet kwaad, haat en onvergeeflikheid is nie goed vir ons nie.Ek hoop jy heal spoedig.Ek vat dit dag vir dag.Ek weet ook dis nie goed dat ek jou kontak nie,maar wat anders an ek doen?Ek kon nog en sal ook nooit my gevoelens wegsteek nie.U the 1 that got away:-)Mooi dag!" sms, godfrey.

"5 seconds to self-destruct...5;4;3;2; !!" sms to matt...

"Awesome! See u there!" sms, matt org course room supe.

"Hi! reminding u that u're coming to Mission Impossible 3.5 Event 2m 6sharp@Radison on Beach road by the Waterfront. Acknowledge this sms so I know u got it." sms, matt (scientology org. course room supervisor).

... my bedding this morning is full of static electricity (sparks flying!)...