... godfrey acts up halfway down long street, in the middle of the night with me, him & sandra carting baggage like some great trek. i'm pissed that he's offended by some 10 sec. call from jonathan that i forgot to report to him (my theoretical poly-amorous sensibilities are royally fucked).


"there's a hole in the plan,
oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
no you don't mean nothing at all to me
but you got what it takes to set me free
oh you could mean everything to me" nelly furtado, "do it right"...

we sleep on the concrete in sleeping bags san's step-dad supplied. all night we're seranaded by guitar muse & ambitious competing singers. the weather is pleasantly warmer than the past week..

sandra's audition went fabulous ...

after picking up godfrey's things from letitia's farmhouse we head back to the strand per train...
my workaholic mother is on a mid-nite house-cleaning mission but pays our help suitably: ...

"Hi Marcellino. Sorry I didn't speak to you yesterday but yourr donation for the building was very well received thank you! Ellen",sms from scientologist, ellen...

"Hey you're coming in today! What time can I expect u? Matt",sms from scientology course room super...

"in trein, oppad." sms to godfrey...

Please call GODFREY

i see my stndard 5 teacher, mr leukes drive his flashy car. as he drives by he greets - it feels good to remembered/acknowledged. 
the aunties @ the library buy my lunch ...

to cape town for our all-niter...

i buy "dainetics 55!" @ the org.

we spend the early evening @ lucy's place - godfrey, sandra, jonathan, juanita & myself... juanita & lucy have a massive argument. juanita & i discuss scorpio nature. afterwards we all head out to linda's - mine & sandra's 1st meeting with her @ her apartment on top of long street's apex. me & sandra are tired & dozing off. godfrey accuses jonathan of seducing me & breaks off their friendship. we leave by midnite to position ourselves in queue @ 'sa's got talent' by the cticc.

assisting my mother with dressmaking. godfrey went ahead to jonathan on the farm preparing for our stay-awake out on the street the night before sandra's 'sa's got talent' audition, saturday .

we leave the store @bout midnite...

3 times in 2 weeks the front door opens to my grandmother's unsane, deaf/mute nephew to beg when i expect godfrey home from cape town...

"See you friday. Keep well" sms to matt, scientologist...

"See you there. Enjoy the week. Marcellino" sms to angela, scientologist...

"Awesome! The new STCC Course rocks. U will like it! See u fri then", scientology sms (unknown #)...

"Great! :-) you too- bringing anyone with? :-)", sms from angela, scientologist...

"WOWY WOW WOW!! What an event! This one makes you proud to be a Scientologist! Join us for the last leg of the Maiden Voyages... It's got to be one of the best events i've ever seen! 6:30 for 7pm Protea Hotel Sea Point. Same place as last week. RSVP please. Ml Angela P.S. bring your tissues! :-)", sms...

"Hello, I'm back in Cape Town and want to get u on your Success Through Communication Course. It's been revised now & is now better than ever! Can u come in today?", sms scientology course supervisor(?)...

my mother & i clean out my grandmother's closet (when 1 of my father's old colleagues shows up & asks her to mend his suitpants. she declines even his chocolate bar payment: )... i thought i had gotten my pack-rat gene from my father but my grandmother outdoes him for gathering mice nest.
fantastic 4:rise of the (homo-erotic) silver surfer has a marriage theme & 007 thunderball, cross-dressing...

this morning my mother & i finish the party dresses @ 2 o' clock in the morning. reassuringly, a police patrol stops me putting the locks on the storefront mistaking me for a potential burglar...

@ the scientology function new life orientation courses are launched (i wonder how gayness & "universal togetherness"/scientology marriage can co-exist?)...
afterwards i meet my mother & dion @ la reference...

ride to town in a light blue taxi... i'm amused that conscious apparently means "with knowledge".

"J mt ma di trein vat solank wa kry ek jo by di stasie of wa lt wt my", sms from my mother about our appointment @ church...

"Sorry my phone was home while i was out. See you later at the event Graham. Enjoy your day.", sms...

"Hi Marcellino. How you doing there my friend? Graham", sms (which graham? no airtime to reply)...

"Hello All! So the eoxcellent Maiden Voyage event will be held at the Protea Hotel in Sea Point. 6:30pm for 7pm! Cant wait for you to see it! Let me know back that you are reconfirmed please! Ml Angela", sms...

today godfrey takes me to sm@rtcape @ cape town central library. the place seems labyrinthine to me. i'm not familiar with the extension wings yet. there's a nature documentary showing live births on a big screen in the waiting room filled with foreign nationals...

afterwards he takes me for my 1st visit to letitia & jonathan on the farm

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standing on the train homeward bound,
reading about 'pleiadian initiative:Awakening to the Great Spirit' i'm given a note by the young woman i offered my seat to; before my mother gets on. we're on our way after her day-job to finish 2 ball gowns @ her boutique for a party tomorrow ...

the municipal workers are finally done re-vaming the street (digging out & replacing sewage pipes). for the past 3 weeks our street looked like a war-zone...

there's a prayer meeting to celebrate my grandmother @ our house. my mother brings along dion. our parish deaconess leads the service. my primary school music teacher, mrs. hess is very sad remembering her deceased son. she raves about godfrey's poetry. uncle errol sings a psalm, beautifully...

"Bring asb my groen tupperware bakkie more saam met jou. Slaap lekker." sms from carol...

"Hey Marcellino. I would like to invite you to our event on saturday 7pm. It has something very special for new people. Can u make it? :) regards Ellen",sms...

my mother & i worked until a misty midnite on a black velvet dress...

my grandmother's 85th birthday & godfrey bakes a cake.

"Don't bother to come. Clearly your loyalties does not lie with me. Remember how u always say: i dont want this or that... Ditto" sms from godfrey...

"Marcellino kom maak iets om te ett asb. Ek moes al my treatment pille gedrink het. Kom gou asb!" sms from godfrey, who's lying in late, ill @ home while i'm busy @ the library.

"Kom help my asseblief. Ek wil toilet toe gaan. Ek voel swak en ekis bang ek sal val " sms from godfrey sick @ home...

"Hi. Ek moet 10 uur by UWK wees. Wil jy saamry? Stuur please call me as jy belang stel." sms from carol...

"OH MY WORD!!! If EVER you wondered as to HOW to help someone with Scientology... wondered how to resolve some of your own personal difficulties, then THIS is THE event to attend!!! Just watched it - you've GOT to see it! Sat 6:30 for 7pm. Event venue to be confirmed by tomor. Please get back to me asap. Angela", sms...

at the library carol introduces me to another new friend (a youthful looking middle-aged woman) in (economic) crisis & transition;
godfrey returns home happy & rejuvenated but his glands are badly swollen...
i run into 2 heinrich's (1 @ the library; 1 @ the shop) i attended primary school with as a senior.
warm wind blowing over the sea from the west...

beautiful dusk. sitting outside reading while my grandmother listens to the radio church sermon (rsg) – they’ve got a lot of female ministers lately. i read godfrey’s draft for his next poetry anthology. i don’t credit his writing talent enough. He’s still visiting jonathan on letitia's farm. It’s peaceful here. the grass was cut yesterday. the dogs start shitting outside on their own. they bark at any whistles (vuvuzelas) incliuding on tv ads – yesterday they howled whenever i play a song with whistling – rod stewart’s ‘open your heart’. half-moon hangs overhead. 'fantastic 4' (1 of the 'nip/tuck' guys, julian macmahon as sadean"dr von doom" - the 4 main characters embody the 4 elements but the villian embodies spirit/electricity or perhaps the chinese 5th element of metal, the oriental elementary system always confused me; last nite the other, dylan walsh was on tv in paul newman's 'nobody's fool') & 'goldfinger' on tv.

help out in my mother's boutique (a long while since i did last)...
miss the scientology function because the car is used to attend the wake of an aunt who passed away this week...
godfrey is visiting jonathan on the farm.
he leaves while we're away from home.
he's already made our lunch for tomorrow.
he'd been upset earlier because i refused to massage him even tho' he's ill with swollen glands.
i'm upest that he doesn't stop smoking & drinking (even tho' he doesn't do it much).

i'm upset with godfrey for being ridiculously angry @ sexual attention i receive from a condescending white security guard, considering that i've allowed him other relationships in the past... through the conversation i discover that he'd had an intimate harassment altercation with same guard previously.

"Hear ye hear ye! All Cape Tonians!Attend the launch of the Maiden Voyage Events- this Sat 7pm sharp at the BMW Pavillion, V & A Waterfront. RSVP this number!" com from angela...

"Hi RAA'ers We hope you enjoyed the World Cup! Please remember to add your profiles to our website. Call or email if you need help. The RAA team", Bulksms.

"Hey Godfrey byri huis? Vra hom om my te bel sodra hy kans kry. Ek heti airtime ni n wil he h mt sam my ccma toe woensdag" sms from lolla...

the world cup final is on tv. on the other channel is ‘the day after tomorrow’, again. laying in godfrey’s arms. i fall asleep when the game goes into overtime.

today is john's funeral.
it's drizzling. he family is gathered @ our old family house, a recently converted shack in the old, passed landlady's backyard. all my cousins are noisily gathered in the garage while the wake service is held in the out room next door.

@ the grave site the municipality now uses tractor machinery to cover graves - novelty to me
...

"Hi. SMS my Dion se nommer asb. Dankie, Godfrey" sms from godfrey...

"Ive xprienced da same cunning&hartlessnes frm sum1 i lovd b4.I can id it&i wont alow it again,anymore.U MUS SERIOSLY THINK ABOUT UR UN4GIVING NATUR...PEACE",sms...

at the library carol introduces me & marlon to her namesake who helps students with reading difficulties.

@ home godfrey & i fight after i pull xa's ear for being disobedient - xa has a tantrum & overturns chairs & throws doors...

godfrey spends most of the day designing john's funeral song sheet (john was the ill-tempered, drunk uncle we used to be threatened with by desperate parents as disobedient children)...
i run into my sub. b teacher ms. (gloria) bekkers when i go to the shop for bread.
carol drags me along to her place to study for her i.c.d.l. which i'll be writing along...

i skip the org function to attend my mother's recently deceased cousin, john's memorial with the family but transport is messed up & we miss the event the wake is later in the week.

it's revealed that the paralyzed, male rape victim had absconded with the rastas meth money - i use to think "meth" rastas was just an insult streetkids made up (social fiction becomes social reality)...

"HIV support group for gay men, THE WEDNESDAY GROUP, meets at 7pm tomorrow night at our new office in Green Point call Glenn (X) for info" sms...

"Hi Luyt gister I didn't have my phone with phones with me to call you so tell I won't pick up Rethabile decided not to quit her job (xa) might see her " sms from ntswake to godfrey...

...godfrey is in a fowl mood - he argues with my fowl-tempered grandmother.

tonight my mother relates how their police forum councelors had to help a man who was gang raped & left paralyzed by rastafarians in a nearby location...

"Hi All!Alright, so for those of you who missed the AObriefing on Sat, we are having another briefing tomor 7 for 7:30pm on the 1st floor, Dianetics space of the org on Strand street.Come get the scoop on your AO... Please get back to me asap. ML Angela"...

lucy & juanita and the rest of xa's lesbian aunts arrive for part 2 of his b-day party.
"All the strangers look like family,
All the family looks so strange"peter gabriel, 'downside-up' (ovo soundtrack)...
they bring along melissa, taz & bianca. ntswake brings along her new boyfriend, shakaar & she gives my reluctant grandmother a foot-rub. marlon joins us later in the evening. we all smoke peace pipe. xa's birthday cake has a ferrari painted on top. taz & shakaar talk art & business.

this past weekend is the most life our house has seen in a long while. godfrey really splurged. jonathan leaves with the rest of the party in bianca's suv transport - bianca loved & fed the cat. eerily jonathan is very fond of my nagging grandmother (she reminds him of a passed aunt).

"We on our way x" sms from lucy...

they arrive in the morning with an unknown friend of godfrey's in tow (should i be jealous? is this an old flame or a neo friend? am i being replaced?)... jonathan is very handy in the kitchen & tends the b.b.q. fire.

lolla arrives early to xa's b-day party with her 2 young ladies (xa's only child attendees). sandra & godfrey karaoke. xa learns m.c.hammer's "2 legit 2 quit".

late nite lolla covinces us all to be dragged to "the lost world of atlantis"club in central strand. sandra's friend, samson taxis us. it's a lot more fun than i expected it to be but i have to retire early hung-over migrained.

"Please call me, Graham" (?)

"HELLO!! So , this is to remind those of you who are coming of the details for tonight, and for those of you who are not... i will try lure you into changing your considerations and the physical universe barriers... AO Briefing TONIGHT!!! 7:30 for 8:00pm at 'The Commodore'- Our Dreams await... Let me know if you need directions, due to the game which ends prior, certain roads will be closed off as well. Love Angela",sms...

"Se hy mt my bel as hy da km asb.mwah" sms fro lolla to godfrey...

"Hi. Ons is in die trein. Ons is oppad. Liefde, Godfrey",sms unknown number...

godfrey takes xa to the fanpark. they overnite in town. i get some rest & critical distance to mull over... 

godfrey now has a new phone again - he tends to be careless with his property +2778-733-0160; +2774-554-9572; +2782-705-8328; +2784-526-5608; +2772-824-6623; +2784-285-7076;;; all phone numbers he's used & handsets lost or stolen over the last 2 years...

"Veels geluk met Jayden se verjaarsdag" sms to xa from cynthia (who mis-spells his name because if my grandmother's mispronunciation)...

"Morning meit! Tried calling u from work on your cell u did not answer! Will call u later again! Pick up this time please! Kisses and hugs!" sms to godfrey...

"Hi there. Sunday is fine. Will c re josie withv regards to space. Thanx 4 sms. Juanita" sms to godfrey...

"Fine too drunk to talk c u 2morrw give me a shout whn u leave Strand x" from lucy...

"Hi we comin around 2morow early afternoon. Wanna go watch the GHANA game at FANPARK. Ill buy u a drink or 3 . SMS me on (x). Thanks, Godfrey", sms from godfrey to lucy...

"JUANITA it seems SUNDAY is gonna be best. Would u mind 2 bring JOSI along- if u not comftable its ok. Ill expect u in da mornin. Hugs, GODFREY", sms from my handset...

"Hi, pse ask HURAM to come along on Saturday!",sms from godfrey to sandra...

"Ok my engel!will do so:-)mwah!" from sandra...

"Hi, pse sms me JONATHAN and LINDA,s numbers",sms from godfrey to lucy...

godfrey shops for the household & pets. i meet my first schoolteacher mrs samuels on my way to them @ the store - she reminisces & reminds me to focus on my arts & urges me to travel & see the world...
my cousin, brent's mother magdalene shares a taxi with me, godfrey & xa home.